today

It’s cold today. I look out my window and see little dunes forming in the snow from the wind that twists and snakes around, leaving pockmarks and craters from the fall of some snowy divot kicked up by the icy breeze. The sun is setting now, casting long shadows and blinding drivers on their homeward treks.

That was my attempt at sounding deep. I’m not gonna keep it up because I’m not feeling really deep right now — plus, some guys are painting the office and the fumes are starting to get to my brain. I think if I keep going I’ll end up sounding like Tolkien on crack. Anyway, I wanted to share some good news with you — Kelly, my manager, came to me today and told me that they’d like to extend my contract from the end of April to the end of September. I haven’t signed any paperwork that makes it official yet, but it’s a welcome sign that they appreciate my work. Yay!

okay, gotta go. take care now.

snow once again

hey people, woohoo it’s snowing 🙂 I love snow. it’s melting when it hits the ground tho. I’m hanging around at Benoit + Constance’s place, and the kids in the schoolyard across the street are roaming around under colourful umbrellas, talking about the sorts of things kids talk about. kids are great. i love kids.

I’m feeling a little existential right now. so many things i used to think and feel and believe are slowly crumbling into dust, and slowly being replaced with new concepts, new behaviours, new manners of thinking and acting. i’m not the same person i once was, and i never again will be. over the past seven months i’ve become aware of so many parts of myself that I had no idea ever existed. and i’ve reached a point of no return that says, hey boy, now that you have this new awareness, you’re never going to lose it, and now you have no choice but to act in accordance with this new awareness. if you ignore and put away the things you’ve learned, you deny yourself and your Lord, and your life becomes meaningless. I have to change my life. I have to live in accordance with what I have learned, without hesitation, without reservation. it’s quite a task to take on.

quite a task. please God I may achieve it.

the dance of the sugar plum fairies!