hey y’all – I hope all of you are doing well, are healthy, and are free from too much anxiety and strife. Lots of things have been happening in my life lately – lots of good things. I’ve been feeling the undeniable urge to blog. I guess it’s a creative streak. My energy’s been replenished to the point where I can once again expend it outside of myself without creating imbalance. I like this feeling. most of all, though, I love understanding where it’s coming from. I guess I can’t really explain it all in writing. The past seven months have been a time of unprecedented spiritual growth for me, mainly brought on by the severity of the tests and trials I was going through over the two years of my service in Québec.
The plant most pruned by the gardeners is that one which, when the summer comes, will have the most beautiful blossoms and the most abundant fruit. (‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Paris Talks, p. 51)
I reflect on everything that’s happened since this summer – where I was, and where I am now – and I think, holy crap, it all put itself back into place. everything that got messed up got replaced by something that wasn’t messed up; everywhere there was a lack, that lack was filled. I’ve been striving to come to grips with the reality of this thing called divine confirmations. I’m still having trouble understanding it. It was a real eye-opener for me when I took a training session to give junior youth study circles – we used the book, “Breezes of Confirmation”, published by the William Mmutle Masetlha Foundation (in Zambia – Misagh is serving there, remember?) Here was a book which explained in simple terms, using stories and reflections, what divine confirmations are. When you take a step towards God, He carries you ten, twenty, perhaps a hundred steps further. ‘Abdu’l-Bahá gives some good explanations about divine confirmations:
The confirmations of the Spirit are all those powers and gifts which some are born with (and which men sometimes call genius), but for which others have to strive with infinite pains. They come to that man or woman who accepts his life with radiant acquiescence. (Abdu’l-Bahá, Abdu’l-Bahá in London, p. 120)
To accept your life with radiant acquiescence, it follows that you have to know what the heck is going on in your life, right — and why it’s happening? To know yourself, perhaps? Bahá’u’lláh states:
The first Taráz and the first effulgence which hath dawned from the horizon of the Mother Book is that man should know his own self and recognize that which leadeth unto loftiness or lowliness, glory or abasement, wealth or poverty. (Bahá’u’lláh, Tablets of Bahá’u’lláh, p. 34)
Food for thought. How well do I know myself? Maybe the better I know myself, and the many ways I have of acting, reacting, overreacting, and so on, the more space I have for receiving divine confirmations – as long as I can accept myself with all my quirks. Food for thought. Maybe the better I know myself, the better I can really know others, and the better I can accept myself, warts and all, the better I can accept others. I bet that might help improve human relations! And I bet it might reduce stress a whole lot, too, and allow a lot of people to sleep easier at night.
I am so happy to be a Bahá’í, to have the bounty of serving humankind, and to be surrounded with others who continually encourage me to keep serving and being the best person I can be. I am so happy to have the bounty of working to make the unity of humankind a reality.
Hmmm, I sound way too happy for my own good. Maybe I’ve been drugged. I knew that chocolate milk tasted funny. Or maybe I’m just not used to being so sane. Oh well.