I’m feeling a little existential right now. so many things i used to think and feel and believe are slowly crumbling into dust, and slowly being replaced with new concepts, new behaviours, new manners of thinking and acting. i’m not the same person i once was, and i never again will be. over the past seven months i’ve become aware of so many parts of myself that I had no idea ever existed. and i’ve reached a point of no return that says, hey boy, now that you have this new awareness, you’re never going to lose it, and now you have no choice but to act in accordance with this new awareness. if you ignore and put away the things you’ve learned, you deny yourself and your Lord, and your life becomes meaningless. I have to change my life. I have to live in accordance with what I have learned, without hesitation, without reservation. it’s quite a task to take on.
quite a task. please God I may achieve it.
the dance of the sugar plum fairies!