questionnement et cheminement

that’s all I’ve been doing lately. questioning myself. progressing a little. questioning myself again. progressing a little. and so on. sometimes God gives people a complete personality rearrangement, but for most of us, He’s ordained a slow, tortuous process where we end up doing all the important work ourselves 😉

gah! why am I here! what am I doing with a bachelor’s degree in computer science in this backwater? bleh. oh well. at least I’m not hoovering up all my savings like I was doing before. that’s definite improvement. I have a job, I have a car, I have a home, and that’s already far more than a lot of people in the world have.

I don’t know. I’m just thinking. thinking. thinking. what in the hell do I want to do with my life? what? serve the Faith, yes, definitely! But what else? What’s my trade? What’s my profession? Who am I going to marry? Where am I going to go? What am I going to do? How many children do I want to have? What languages will they speak? What useful contribution to society am I going to make? How am I going to make myself useful?

If that’s what I’m saying now, then my priorities must have changed. When I left high school I only wanted a job that would be easy to get and would pay lots of money. So I chose computer science. Go ahead and laugh at me now.

Hmm, my monitor just went click and did something wierd.

Check back later.

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